Feedback from the Tensegrity workshop held in Los Angeles, California, February, 2010:

The Green Room: Opening Our Hearts

General Feedback

There are no words to express my endless gratitude for having shared with all of us this dream of freedom.  The intent of this seminar was so powerful that shifted my awareness to my energy body and left me with a different understanding of my successes and failures. 

As I did The Tracking Exercises of my ideas and those of my lineage about “Success” and “Failure”, I discovered that I have inherited a pattern of ideas and beliefs shared and sustained through the lives of each member of my lineage including my own.  Practicing the magical passes and working with a witness, allowed me to penetrate through the fog of these ideas and beliefs and a new point of view of Success and Failure was revealed.

The day after the seminar, I woke up with the urgent feeling to thank all those luminous beings that in one way or another have contributed in the construction of my life.  I thank the Spirit for giving me the opportunity to realize my great fortune at recognizing that my Successes are the result of the generosity, support of any kind, affection, knowledge, love, money, kindness, smiles, hugs, words, etc, etc,… of all those beings that in one way or another have crossed or shared the path of my dreams of success. For this, I cried out loud my endless gratitude to all of you knowing that I will never be able to pay you back. Having realized this, takes off the load of feeling important for my successes and a new feeling of lightness and affection blooms towards these ideas and beliefs. I see now that the purpose of being in this existence is to keep evolving our state of awareness and to be successful is to be fluid enough to dissolve the illusion of feeling successful or a failure.     

My new ideas of “Failure” after the seminar:  I realized that my failures are not failures at all, they are opportunities to keep evolving and that the most important thing, is not getting the expected results but the fact of having tried and to be able to learn from the experience. Now, I see my failures as teachers in my life that indicate me to take another approach in the achievement of my dreams. My new idea of defeat is to have forgotten that we need neither our successes nor our failures to be fulfilled, is to have lost contact with our true self!    

Knowing that to bring these dusts of light into my life is an endless journey, I thank all you for having taken us into your dream through this wonderful Seminar!

This last workshop proved to be a lot of work AND very rewarding.
I'll start with a brief recap of my witnessing exercises in regards to defeat and failure.
For my failures I shared a point in time that I was playing drums in a rock n' roll/blues trio. The other 2 musicians in the band where a very accomplished bass player and guitar player. I was probably the least experienced in the band. The music we were playing wasn't really the style I was preferring to play at this time of my life but I was very flattered they asked me to play and couldn't resist a chance to play with these guys. Things went along pretty good for a few months and then I started feeling an uneasy tension in the band. As it turned out the bass player was dissatisfied with my playing and I was asked to leave the band, or in other words....FIRED!! I live in a rural community and bad news travels fast. It reminded me of a break up with a girlfriend…Everyone asking me what happened and my cohorts within the musical community giving me those ""knowing"" looks about my termination......basically humiliating and down right embarrassing!! To save time and space I'll not continue too much with the re-occuring defeats except to say I was cut from a High School football team.....Which I was frankly relieved because of being forced to try-out for football from pressure from my Father.

Well next the fun thread. My successes....Last New Years I played a gig that I was very prepared for and really played good that night and was acknowledged by my fellow bandmates for that and I returned the acknowledgment to them as well. We had a great time playing. Sharing this with my witness, I had other successes in regards to performing show up for me as well.

So speaking of performances, I was asked to perform at this workshop playing congas on one song. I had a short time to prepare for the song but given my experience I felt that I would be able to fulfill the task and once again, flattered and excited about playing with my cohorts!! Well we had one rehearsal and I fell apart once playing the piece but recovered and played my part well enough on the second attempt, so be it, All seemed fine. The next day Saturday we did a very quick rehearsal at lunch and all the players performed well, all were happy, all seemed fine.....

Then came the ACTUAL performance.....(there was trouble with rhythm that called to mind earlier scene of failure.)

(Then we had another round—this time…)
 The pass started and I never took my eyes/ears off the Moth. There was no room just the Moth and music. Finally the moth started to stand it was time for the song change, the time of reckoning AGAIN!! My vision became slightly blurred, then clearly I saw his wings start to open flutter, I was there with him, focused, in touch, he was leading the dance. In the paradigm of sports, it was like in American baseball, a batter seeing his homerun BEFORE the ball leaves the pitcher's hand or a soccer player seeing the ball hitting the net of the goal BEFORE he takes it away from his opponent. I was dancing with this being in front of me. At one point my perception shifted because my attention was pulled away by one of the other musician's attention. I, for a second fell off the wings, I felt nervous, unsure but then my energy body said, the dance isn't over get back up there; I did, then with a relaxed focus finished my dance with him. I was so complete with everything.

Moments afterwards, what I realized was all these beings around me my fellow participants, my cohorts, weren't worried or even aware of MY defeats or successes. They were genuinely concerned about my being, how I was rather than WHO I was.

I've taken this home with me now, this new perception that I'm listening to people's defeats/successes like mine. Hearing them talk to themselves and feeling we are alike we all have these listenings ,these perceptions. I've softened my shield, I'm going to nurture this dream to stay soft when I can and forgive myself and everyone around me when our shields become hard from time to time.

Boy it's a tall order to give feedback on this workshop!

The first thing that comes up is how full my heart is, with love and appreciation, for all the practitioners of this transformational art called Tensegrity.  This isn't just words - as I write this I feel it passionately surging up from my chest, and every time I think of the workshop I see those faces again, shining.  And I truly believe I haven't felt that way about other human beings since I was a small child.  It's wonderful to know how inclusive this feeling is too.  No one is exempt from my love, as it makes space for each person's uniqueness, allows for great variety and looks well beyond the surface. 

And in this workshop, I found out I am different from - more than - what I thought I was.  For example, I have always believed I couldn't remember passes well, that my particular learning style wasn't well served by conventional teaching methods.  And as usual, I struggled with the movements, trying to divine the overall pattern, etc.  Then something happened.  I believe it was Saturday night that the magical original composition was performed by those peerless musicians to accompany our practice of the Moth and Butterfly of Many Hues.  At a given point I simply found myself AT ONE with the music.  I felt mysteriously lifted up and for once I didn't look at my neighbors to see what came next in the form:  I knew what came next and performed it with utter confidence.  It was so natural that I barely noticed this was something new.  All I knew was it felt easy, rhythmic, just right.

This is one brief aspect of a weekend that was so full of experience, feeling and wonder that it's as if I lived a lifetime in two days, or maybe what appears to have been contained in two days actually stretches way into the past and the future.  The challenge was not to find something to write about as feedback but rather to choose which marvel among so many marvels to describe.

The tracking exercises opened a door to see more clearly our own lineage pattern and to play with it (triggering words) by ‘flying’ around  the room; this created the opportunity to feel and  witness what it is tracking at every second and at every different body position.

Personally gave me a sense of  what is to be in deep silence while tracking (observing) myself and my surroundings in a very delightful and enjoyable way. No struggling, no pushing myself to track my daily life but rather to open my heart to enjoy my energetic body and to learn about my lineage pattern(s). How fortunate I am for being able to witness this. So many years I have tried to understand this, and this time I was able to get it from my heart, which explains  why it is so hard to find the appropriate words.

Thanks a lot for all the workshop instructors which worked hard to put together this amazing experience. Also want to deeply thanks those who guided and helped the instructors from the first steps of preparation to the end to accomplish their goals.

… I really had to push myself this time to do pre-assignment and tracking exercises in workshop. Like there was an extraordinary resistance in me which gave up finally on Sunday.
 
But if workshops demand more, equally benefits are also very rewarding. During the workshop passes stirred up like pearls of memories about my 'failures' and 'defeats' and I felt, if only for awhile, what is it like to have an open heart.

I also felt my “shields” and I have plenty of them. They have been my friends for so long a time and I have been hiding behind them. But now I can hear a call of the wild, so to speak, like there is a door just before my eyes that I couldn't see before. It takes a lot of courage to go through that door …

But luckily for me, I have been given very efficient tools to carry on my path.

Thank you for the wonderful seminar. It was the warmest and most intimate workshop I have been to . It was like being in someone's living room. It was good to be able to be in touch with everyone on a more personal level.

                                              Tracking Exercises

I learned from viewing my fathers life that he handed me the torch to carry so I can learn from his mistakes, not repeat them and make him proud of me to show he didn't waste his time.

My mom taught me love and affection. Doing for others and learning from her to help myself first and not leaving myself out of the picture. It ended up killing her and I want to live.

My brother showed me what hard work and an education can do. Also being financially stable eases the stress level of living. But not at the price he's paying.

None of these "failures" taints my view of them from my energy body as beautiful people who did and are doing the best they can and I love them in the same way I love all of you. Only my family is blood.

New Definitions

Winning is following my intuition. Losing is following my internal dialogue.

                                                    Abre La Puerta

David and Jaimie excelled in their reading. The drama of the poem got deeper as they went along. It really pulled me in not to judge but to see God in everything.

                                                   Many Hued Moth Music

The flute and the sitar were what made this pass. It really carried me away. Where to, I don't know. It gave me wings and a destination.

I found the flying around the room also quite liberating and found that I bristled less each successive time I heard my trigger phrase for failure. Also I learnt to see that others were involved and contributed to making my success trigger phrase happen.

On Saturday evening, when Nai said from the scene, I saw a large flew moth.
Thank you for this wonderful workshop

I noticed during the stalking exercise that I often tell myself that I’m better than my brother, but I hadn’t been aware of it.
Now I can see that this affects my relationship with him. This brings me to start taking new actions with him…

I really like Steve’s story. I was very illustrative to see that you can access something greater than you. And the way to help intending to see ourselves as equal, not superior to anybody.
  
After the workshop, I’ve felt as if my body were literally covered in a cape of affection, of warm protection which makes me feel loved, cuddled. It’s like having 10 centimeters of affectionate confidence all over my body. I have felt an ability to give. This makes me be in my daily life from another place, my assemblage point has moved towards affection.

Two days after the workshop, I participated in an oratory competition and I won, I believe thanks to the connection with my energy body which the workshop left me with.

A part of me has confused it with affection for the opposite sex, for the known, but I’m realizing that. I’ve held back my fantasies and I’ve moved them towards my physical body and energy body. Towards healing and giving affection outwards.

Hello! On tracking failures/defeats successes/victories I was not "impressed" on any pattern of my family line. But I was very impressed on new definition Failure: Every failure is precious (because) of what new (things it) made me learn and which new way it showed me. Success: I see it as success of all people around me and family line. I should share with them and admit to them their contribution. Thank you!

…The notion of lifting ‘failures’ up from the muck and moving them to the middle and downscaling the extremity of ‘success’ to the middle really sticks with me and seems to be operating in my daily responses.

Also I was truly moved by Steve McAndrew’s story of realignment in the situation in Haiti: it was like Tensegrity in action in the real world on a global scale.

Greetings of affection from a grateful Tensegrity practitioner. The truth appears that 'We' are Cleargreen, collective conscious entity, forming a new Healing Space and Time: a clear green pool of immeasurable depth and beauty encompassing a spacious Here and a luxuriant Now.

This Heart practice Energy is so clearly what this practitioner has thirsted for. It comes at a time when the butterflies of day and night are the form my energy body has been trying to manifest for some time recently. In my return home it is becoming more like a Dragonfly form. In the hotel leaving Los Angeles Monday, a lady with a brand new tattoo stepped onto our elevator. It was a beautiful and painful butterfly which she had come to LA exclusively to have done because she had released butterflies at her wedding and admired their grace and beauty.

I loved “Flying around the Room.” I have since thought of many ‘triggering’ sentences that I might want to burn away in future flyings. I wanted to fly to everyone in the room and I felt very much like a flying fluttering moth or butterfly when they flit and flock together. I felt so light and free of heart, what a delicious feeling!

I loved the whole pass, The Moth of Many Hues. When it was musically accompanied, it was so easy to find the rhythm of the naturally emerging being and I was able to see the sea of beings waking and coming into their new form simultaneously. This is a beautiful and naturally evolving pass, one which is memorable and valuable as a resource to use as often as necessary to relieve heaviness.

The tracking exercises always have felt heavy to me. My life has changed and the view from the third gate of Dreaming is available to me now. Tracking "success and failure" is a wonderful test of how we may not be so clear at times. For instance, asking was the workshop a success or not, leads one to a snap judgment or an expression of intent. I found that I laugh when the unknowable pops up and I noticed some practitioners laugh a great deal.

In sharing and receiving the energy body's view, I shut off my attention to the person perceiving me while I shut off my internal dialog and let impressions about the person I was perceiving come to my mind. I am not sure there was sufficient preparation for every participant to do that because there were comments which read like flattery or encouragement, which I felt could only come from their tonal's inventory rather than the silence of the energy body. Perhaps that is exactly the kind of thing people most dread and find heavy and distasteful. How delicious!

Steve McAndrew’s story is pure heart. How gratifying to watch Steve grow through these workshops into someone who makes a real difference in the world, while not being of the world. We do work from a clearer level with Cleargreen, one with the healing Heart, the open hand of true helping. This is the transformational power of Love in action. Thank you Steve.

While I'm not a beginner (this was my 9th workshop since May 1999), I love to overhear the questions and answers from the beginner's sessions. I want to know what people are asking about these days as I love to hear Reni Murez’ responses. I mainly deal with people on the question end of our practices and so I use the input to model how I respond when I open myself to the inquisitive. I am at a point in my association with Cleargreen where I am free to share and intend together with all of us. This has been pending. There are stories I hold which you need to hear as I need to release. And I need your stories, too.

Open the Door. I read this to my wife back at our hotel (she did the stalking exercises from our room, green as it was). How powerful. She knew the poet and had read the piece, still it held power and moved us both. Abre la Puerta.

Thank you for the song "I will be the One". We each need, as I see from the uniformity of our self-doubt and under-rating, to love our selves, freely, publicly, unashamed of our vulnerability. Breathing freely for the first time in true love with our own unity is beautiful and fortifying. Our quiet open minds are silent as we enjoy the cocooning love we feel for others directed to our own selves, right exactly where we need it most. Delicious beyond expression....

Releasing the Shields Form, ancient and effective. Right for the Times. Everything is changing and we have carried loads that are neither ours to bear nor effective in their original purpose. We are stripping to a streamlined version where only essentials remain. Tense and release, squeeze and let go, this brings the toxins to the surface and exudes them. The sweep and shake to release excess energy is absolutely essential. The shimmer of release was a savory nourishing light that shimmered up my spine at each release. Every time I got the effect and, wow, was it ever refreshing; like a cool drink on a hot desert day. The pass was easy to learn and effective to perform and the teaching/demonstration was clear and progressed at an even pace.

As an aside, it was wonderful to discover Teo Alfero so successful in his Dream to bring wolves to a more balanced place in public and to help the lives of individual wolves. There are many stories of how Carlos Castaneda has changed the currents of History for the Heart of compassion. I find that there are still many well-intended people who metaphorically spit on the ground and stomp on it when his name is mentioned. Oh the distortion of the smoky mirror....

I love all who have been part of this incredible work of Cleargreen, those who are now 'us', and those who are already coming to us. We are indeed a timeless now and a spacious here in the Infinity of being.

Since the workshop I've been very accepting of myself. Of my mistakes or shortcomings or things that I felt were ugly in myself. I have decided to stop struggling and tormenting myself to be a "right" person. Why struggle? I already am a right person, just the way I am, flaws and all. This has made a dramatic change in the way I interact with people. Before I was looking for them to let me know if I was good enough. I'd try to manipulate my behavior, try to act like someone who might be worthy. So if they smiled I was worthy and if they frowned I was bad. Now I don't care if I'm worthy or bad. I've decided to just leave that behind, that whole evaluation. Now it's easy, I just talk to people and I'm unaffected by how they respond. 

And the way it usually goes is that I smile at them and am open-hearted and kind because that's the way I feel like being. It feels good and it's fun. If they "reject" me I don't take it as such. I just think: ""Hmm, I think they're nervous or uncomfortable, or they're tired, or that's just how they express themselves or I am rubbing them the wrong way right now."

Last night I did something completely out of character for myself.  It's a saturday night and after doing passes and recapitulating it was about 11:00. It sounded like a party was going on two houses down the block so I climb on top of my shed to see if this was true and it indeed was.  So then I got dressed and went to the party even though I had never met these neighbors. This might sound pretty commonplace to some of you but for me this was ludicrous. I would NEVER work up the gumption to do such a thing. But I just walked up, said I was their neighbor and asked if I could come to their party and they said yes. I had a really fun time because I was totally with an open heart towards the fellow party members and myself as well. This too is ludicrous. I wasn't the SLIGHTEST BIT self conscious in a party full of people I had never met? "Poppycock!"  "Balderdash!" you would say if you knew me. It was like a dream. As if I was dreaming while being awake at the same time. Fancy that!

There have been many more changes that I will not go into at this moment. I have never been so profoundly affected by a workshop and it is my intent to keep this new way of being going which is why I'm writing this feedback. I've never written feedback for a workshop before. Sheesh I hope it's ok but then again if it's not, I don't really mind.

During the course of the Tracking Exercises, from the assignment through the workshop, I have come to realize some things. First; Success/Failure is largely an arbitrary label placed on the consequences of our actions. Second; My successes/ failures are often someone else's failures/ successes. Third; So the success/failure dichotomy creates a persona and a reflection of that persona early in our lives and perpetuates it continually.  The question becomes "Is this my true self?" 

I am only now realizing that the vibrations of the percussion, the poetry reader's voices, the words of the poet and the Many-Hued Moth music helped me learn the Magical Passes. I have found myself saying "Abre la Puerta" in all kinds of daily life scenes and immediately rotating my shoulders and opening my heart, my door. Do I know these Magical Passes perfectly? No. But I can practice what I remember with the Intent of silencing my internal dialogue and becoming aware of my energy body.

That brings us to the song "I Will Be the One". As a young man, I realized I wanted to make decisions based on hope, optimism and love. However, as I look back, I see that what I thought was loving and caring was really enabling and taking responsibility for others. My best relationship has always been with myself. As that band of Magical Musicians was playing "I Will Be the One", I felt a lightness. I could only sing and dance and laugh. I've known forever we don't have to worry about Being in Love. We already are Love in Being.

Some moments in The Green Room:

The reading of the poetry "Abre la puerta" with this repetition of "open the door" finally created an opening in the chest area at the end of the poem. I felt it like a kind of release in the chest or a wind which went through my chest. During the night after I felt "energy" moving around me in my bed, around my shoulders, my chest, my back and could feel the "stone" I still keep in the chest. Thank you to both of the Busters who read the poem. It was done with passion and heart.

 Very emotional moment was also "the receiving and sharing of the energy body's view". It was very interesting to see some common characteristics concerning the view of the different practitioners and very moving to see that people have the ability to see our true self even when we are unable to see it by ourselves most of the time.

"Dialogue is "you're an Indian so you're not as good as White people", "you have your head up your ass because you think you're better than the rest of us", "you should be ashamed of yourself", "you take after your father's side, they’re all overweight".

Body Positions: tight shoulders, jaws, stomach, narrow vision.

New View: I'm okay with who I am.

New Dialogue:  I'm sorry you feel this way about me but I am who I am and I am happy.

New Body Position:  Breathing openly, chest open, chin up, back straight, relaxed, calm.

Trigger Words:  You're not good enough.

New Words:  I am satisfied with who I am at this present moment.

Thanks!

The preliminary tracking exercise was one of the most difficult (for me) yet.  It took a lot of searching. I took a long close look at my grandmother, among others, which was tough. As I pondered the assignment, my feelings of success or failure rose to the surface and hung over me for the following weeks. Writing the report was a long intense process.  All of it though, seemed very valuable even before arriving in downtown LA. 

Sharing with my witness on Saturday afternoon was staggering.  I've been in the midst of feeling my marriage is failing. The final outcome of my witnessing indicated it was over.  I was enveloped by sadness in spite of the passes and exercises. The act of sharing the supposed success and failure with the “Flying around the Room,” was one more extraordinary bonding experience with my fellow practitioners, and did a great job of diffusing or releasing what energy was trapped in the statements.   I loved the sharing the energy body's view with my group.  Yet, after the fact I found that I had passed over (my) initial impressions because they were the same as what others had written.  Once we completed the exercise I realized I could have trusted my initial impressions, that they were on the mark.  To pass over initial impressions is a pattern with me.  To unfold that pattern and view it, as in the exercise, is very valuable in that it helps to support the awareness of the intake of much more subtle information.

I was very moved by Steve's McAndrew's presentation and had already (upon realizing he was in Haiti) felt we (the Tensegrity structure) were there with him.

I continue to be amazed by how well and quickly we as a group learn these long forms.  I can't really grasp it, it doesn't make sense, but it's so cool to experience it.  I've learned to laugh at my regular moves to the left when the next step is to the right, or vice versa.  By laughing at it, it diffuses my frustration, and I can set a bookmark to go back and discover on my own which direction to go at those points in the pass…

The percussion was out of this world!  And complemented and rooted the movements so very well.  Abre la Puerta was truly powerful at first reading, and became more so as I read it on the plane ride home. It became the door to open other doors.  For me it served as the vehicle to tie the pieces of the workshop together. Many Hued Moth music was also right on the money, so ethereal, and seemed to transport us well. The Song: I will Be the One is the kind of song that would in the past have made me feel self conscious, this time I got it, let it in and absorbed the message.

I look at our grey days here at home, melting snow and the early arrival of mud season (early Spring,) as a Green Room to be opened out from.  My marriage has not failed, there is life still.  If I can take my observations of intractable situations, the core obstacles that I perceive in my relationship/marriage, and view them as the doors in Abre la Puerta, I can move to open to a greater connection.  That's a very big deal, and I will work at it.

So much of what we think is unique and special about ourselves are actually “hand me downs”.  How liberating that is.  Since the workshop I have expanded my family lineage list and am making plans to speak with my mother and my father’s sister to see what more I can learn.  And looking at the reaction triggers is fascinating too since they seem to be imbedded in the family lineage, kind of land mines.  So much to understand and so little time …

The magical passes were special as always, but what was different this time was me.  There is something about having been to a workshop before that allowed me to focus entirely on the moments and to record them within my body. I have done the Releasing the Shields and the Moth/Butterfly already at home (though this afternoon I realized I missed a short piece of the first one, and its okay!).

Abre la Puerta.  The poetry reading was magical with the way their voices intertwined.  There is something special about two people who have picked up each others energy when they are bonded together and when they do something like that.

… I will see if any Green Room discoveries come to mind by this weekend.  I am getting a notebook to keep my recap notes/observation in and I am looking forward to uncovering the trapped energies in my successes as much as those trapped in the defeats.  I continue to have fun every day and am making plans to create a recapitulation place in my house.  While I am looking into designs and materials [sorry, more family lineage, my father this time], I am also waiting for the spirit to present the actual design and materials to me.  I know that in a short time; if I stop-and-don’t-think-about-it, the answer/opportunity will come; it almost always does.

PS – The intent from the moth of many colors made me want to paint myself in bright colors.

This particular seminar had a rich effect on me.  The heights we all explored together with the Butterfly and Moth movements. The layers stripped away by the "Releasing the Shields" Movements.  Memories relived and released to a universe whose ability to comfort and heal is limitless.  Experiences thoroughly recounted and felt with senses renewed.   Feeling from our energy bodies, each others' true selves, and writing down those impressions for the others to see.

How accurate were the other people in describing me?  What do they know?  They don't know me!  All of this came up for me and I became willing, in that instant, to accept whatever infinity had presented. If it was so I would henceforth notice and experience.  Just one comment out of 30 that seemed out of place and I was sent into a tail spin.  Once I accepted that the seemingly improbable attribute may be true, I was able to step back from ME and save my energy over this irrelevancy.  

When the seminar was over I had a long drive home that night. It was one of the clearest most focused drives I had ever taken. The air seemed so sharp and crisp that it was palpable. I got home at 11:40 p.m. and my wife asked me if I was clear enough to think because she was upset about the health of one of our main businesses.  I replied that I was actually extremely clear. She said "I thought you might be".  So we started to talk and we talked until 2:00 a.m. We actually got very clear on what needed to be done and the very next morning she implemented the action needed with astounding, positive results.

That was two weeks ago and this yummy clarity continues.  I don't know what else to say but thank you one and all......pure magic.

So many incredible experiences we shared together that I'll call on the energy body view to bring some cohesion...

Frederick Guerin’s talk was moving as a model for relentless exploration of the subtle ways we can diminish our own glow and that of those around us. His honesty let me breathe and gain greater acceptance of the insidious ways that I do not always live up to full and complete integrity. We do not come to Silence and gazing out at the water off the pier if we are filled with either heavy or petty concerns and gossip.

The Moth and Butterfly of many Hues now there I will dwell a bit. That was a remarkable, extraordinary journey for me. When we talked after an earlier cycle of the pass, I had seen the color Gold. It was in the form of gold bars to be precise, gold bars along the top of my glasses at the level of my eyebrows. Abre la Puerta followed this discussion and I was transported during this phenomenal presentation. I cried, I was moved, my shields slipped away. I felt honored to witness the courage of the beings who created the opening for us. Words do not cover my gratitude for this gift but I offer my heart-felt thanks. Thank You for bringing it to life. My energy body was vibrating so strongly in response to each word.

We did the magical pass again, layered with the vibrating haunting music of sounds and pauses. I felt both full and empty at the same time, balanced and wide open. I  saw a grouping of emerald green oval shapes with tops of vivid purple. Several 3-5 were loosely configured off to the left and the same to the right while in the middle was a much larger grouping of 12 or so aligned in rows slanted on a diagonal top right to bottom left. My internal dialogue piped up with oh, you are seeing those colors because Nyei Murez named those colors. Another voice said, you know better than that and I saw an image flash like a memory of one of the Cleargreen video covers as if to tell me to look closer at that image later and be silent now. I called to silence and my energy body as we continued the magical pass together.  As we journeyed onward, I saw the same or another grouping of these ovals. This time the same green base to the oval but the top 1/3 or so was shimmery champagne and many hues.

The ovals were closer and much more elongated and I was looking at only the center grouping like beautiful dashes arrayed in a diagonal, still in rows. There was no conversation about that in me. No words, no great excitement, just a silent awe.

I loved to sing with you all too. There is no critic in the energy body to cut off depths of emotion…It sips and soars with the nectar  of affection brought to life in music and poetry.

Rupert Sheldrake is on my active list to explore now thanks to you for sharing. Telepathy sounds to me like another word for communication enabled by the energy body. Non-local field interactions I might see as how our Tensegrity structure moves and reshapes as we do…

Monday morning prior to my trip home, I lay in bed and as is my habit, called Silence, called my energy body. I found my mind reading off of the list created by our group of 6 beings. I had the wonderful and amazing sensation of energetic shimmers move in the same patterns my hands had made over the feet, ankles, calves thighs and buttocks coating me with the phrases. My physical hands were resting on my womb as my energy hands demonstrated another layer of "coating". I had not yet looked at our ongoing assignment but I'm guessing my energy body was not so unaware. It's taking the initiative to keep me steeped in awe.

My mysteries did not end there that day. I have for years carried a deep fear, bordering on terror of getting lost and driving alone in a city. So, I was in LA alone, had deliberately rented a car and now needed to return to the airport. Not having seen the car in 3 days, I had a short intense search for it followed by winding down a looping layered parking garage - I rolled onto the street gripped in fear. I clung to sobriety and focus with my entire complete being. I started  a chant that I use HOME HOME HOME and now I know how strongly this chant invokes my full presence. I looked up, there was the sign for the 110 south, left lane and started repeating like a GPS in the accent and tone of my magical friend Richard's GPS that he named Dorothy - 110 south, left lane, 110 south, left lane. It was long moments before my mind caught all the connections that my energy body had swiftly assembled to place me in OZ, focused yet shaking my head with the humor of it. I did not let up using my GPS Dorothy voice until I stepped out of that rental car with not a single wrong turn and grateful for facing my fears. Lighter and freer.

I flew across the country, landed that night, knew my partner was waiting for a call to his location at an out of state business trip dinner that I had arrived safely. Yup, until the car would not start for the first time in the 8 years I have owned it. A nightmare? A drama? No way. The first card I pulled out of my wallet was the up to date AAA card, fully charged cell phone in my hand, I called, they connected me to the airport aid service, they asked where I was which I knew clearly, I reached my partner for a mini worst case scenario planning session, in a few more minutes the service fellow arrived, attached jumper cables, car turned over on the first try and I was rolling home in less than the 20 minutes allocated to me to exit the garage with my paid parking ticket. The energy body is a stunningly efficient vibratory force that has no hesitation to seek aid and link up to get the job done.

In all, it was a magical workshop from beginning to end. Oh, has it ended? No, I have new connections from meal time delightful encounters, stalking and dreaming work to pursue daily for homework to keep me on track, and who knows what else will come my way because this is a mysterious path of heart and Spirit. Thank you from my open heart.

From a Green Room Poem called “Sacred Union”

            Where our love lives,

            that's where we'll be…