Here is some of the feedback we received from participants of the recent workshop:

"Dare I Dream?... Yes!"
Bath, Somerset, England, United Kingdom
June 27, 28 & 29, 2008

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Thank you for this magical and full of energy experience! … magical passes and stalking exercises that help us identify, from our vibrating, energetic nature: the trail of moments of "Yes" in our lives, and what we really want here and now; and dreaming exercises that help us to collaborate, to carry that "Yes" forward into active group dreaming. (You really meant what you said at the announcement of this workshop.)

Some of the moments of “Yes” were: when my witness helped me to understand, just showing my body position, that it is not necessary to take the things so seriously. When another witness helped to understand that the challenge is to be more fluid in my interactions, to have fun, transform and enjoy the “difficult situations” and he showed me how, during our interactions outside the practice hall. To interact these days with the other practitioners inside and outside the practice hall was another magical point. The workshop was extended to the moments of eating, walking, talking and practicing together at the dreaming place of Bath campus. I felt the thirst for awareness of the participants and the alive and vibrating connection between us. This workshop was a celebrating meeting of intent and awareness. We brought our experiences and awareness from all around the earth and we shared them during those dreaming moments. And from that exchange everything became clearer and then the new dreams appear… During these days I have often the feeling that my dream is not so far, that I am living in my dream here and now … to be at such a beautiful place, with all those magical beings with the common intent to go further on this tour of awareness.

Other “Yes” moments were when we practicing the Magical Passes, with elegance, power and with accompany of the music. I am still feeling these vibrations of the different music instruments and of our voices that lead us to the “Secret” moment when we felt the interconnection during The Singing Earth Serpent Magical Pass; when everything was energy… when we were dreaming together … when we all became a single unit of silence, affection and mystery…

While Nyei Murez reading the Walcott’s poem I was feeling that: The time has come when, with elation I am greeting myself arriving at my own door, in my own mirror and each is smiling at the other’s welcome…

While a rabbit, part of this wonderful landscape, let me notice its fear and its insecurity when he went further from the security of his tree at a wide area. Its eyes were moving exactly as mine while I was adopting my old body position earlier at the workshop. I recognize the rabbit as a mirror where I could see my fear… and Later Jim helped me to go further and helped me to feel that fear of death disappears when i accept that I am going to die.

The stalking exercises were bridges where we bring our dreams and our new findings at our daily lives. Helping us to practice the art of specific dreaming…here and now efficiently, specifically, elegantly and guided by the spirit.

Thank you to all - magical beings - participants for this delicious experience and for the energetic exchange from my whole being!

I am so happy I made it to this workshop…! The predominant feeling and mood about this event is one of shared purpose, alignment, joy and lightness. It made me realize that daring to dream means acknowledging life in its fullness, acknowledging that we are here in this miraculous form for a limited time, on this miraculous Earth. Stalking my dreams and my excuses strengthened my sense of living in the present moment and not stopping to postpone my dreams. And again it’s such a gift to be able and use the body position as a tool to become aware of our state and to shift it if necessary. The magical passes we did are a perfectly balanced mixture of action and feeling, elegance, rhythm and floating.

For me, the flow of magical passes, lectures, stalking exercises and practitioners’ stories created a surrounding and mood of supreme support and inspiration. It was a tremendous joy to listen to all of the lectures and stories - magical moments with parents, deaths of loved ones, abusive relationships, enthusiasm and visions… I could recognize myself in them in many ways. Nyei Murez went so deep in her lecture and I am so grateful she shared this story with us. I felt a strong joy to hear that she is regaining her connection to expressing herself through language. Her words and the way she is expressing herself verbally have always moved and inspired me. It also touched me deeply to hear that sometimes our mind can tell us we have to stop activities that are connected to our personal history, and that this view is too narrow and wholesale. For me, among several dreams including a house by the Mediterranean Sea to enjoy nature and practice inner silence, the dream of clearing up my space / my apartment came to the fore one more time. I found excuses like “Why bother?” , “I don’t have the time” , “I don’t know how” which are connected to the following inherited feelings and convictions: 1) I will probably not stay in this apartment / this city / this country much longer (When my parents came to Germany they thought it would be just for a couple of years but stayed there for 20 years. But there was always a mood of “temporary” around). 2) The purpose of using time for the household / housekeeping is to look after a husband or children (As a working woman living alone I have difficulties using part of my time to create a pleasant place to stay for myself). Thanks from my deepest heart to all of us who dream together and who are making these dreams possible…!!

I loved the fact that whatever subject we work on we apply the same structure. I love this work on stalking our attitudes and beliefs in this first attention. Every time we start the stalking exercise in a workshop, there is a part of me that feels uneasy. “Someone” in me wears a long face and says “oh no, again!, We do not need to do that!” . I know this voice very well, and after all these year I have become proficient in dealing with it with affection and resolution. Still, it is still there.

It is difficult to pick specific things I liked during the workshop. The easy answer would be: all. I liked to be there, I liked to be in that state, in that time. I liked the music and the “singing serpent”. I liked the didgeridoo. I liked to be with the community of practitioners and with the instructors. I didn’t want to leave in the end; my regret is not to have hugged personally each single person present there.

I have several dreams and I am a constant “producer” of dreams in my life. The dream I picked for the workshop was related to my business: since a few month I started up my company with a few associates and I am facing a lot of challenges (I am too old, it is too difficult, I am not good for it, the market is too challenging,…). I loved to “wear” my dream written on the t-shirt. After the workshop I laugh at my excuses and I clearly see who is talking the excuses. One of the commitments taken with my witness during the workshop was to start my day from silence and take decision from silence. Bringing the abstract in my life: what is the power asking me today? Rather than me asking the power to give me this and that. When I feel worried and do not know anymore what is the right thing to do, I make a pause and wait that a voice from silence points to the good direction with a word, or a feeling.

IT IS A PLEASURE TO TELL YOU ABOUT MY PERCEPTIONS OF THE SEMINAR OF BATH, I AM VERY HAPPY SINCE THIS SEMINAR WAS JOURNEY INTO MY DREAMS!!!

SPECIFICALLY I REMEMBER THE SERIES: ON THE RUN WHILE SITTING, GUIDED BY AMBAR WHERE THERE ARE PAUSES TO DREAM OUR DREAMS, AFTER WRITING DOWN THE LIST.

During those pauses scenes from my immediate dreams would come to me: traveling, dancing, taking singing lessons, studying English.... There was a voice that would tell me: Don´t hold on to anything old, let go of everything!!! I saw that I had to be more fluid and to let go of old things like holding on to just one relationship and to find an invitation of INFINITY, to be open to new possibilities to do new things!!!

Connected to this, something specific resonated within me, some words that Nyei Murez said: “We can be fluid and follow energy”

I am grateful to the Magical Passes of the Series ON THE RUN, I felt throughout my body what meaning those words have.

There were old things in my life that no longer brought energy, on the contrary it would take it away. I could no longer be working all day in a state of stress, locked up at home where I work. Its very pleasant to go out in the morning, this is something new for me and I walked down the street singing silently and I felt that life smiles at me. I began taking an intensive class to learn English during the mornings with some teachers in training. They are young people from all over the World and I am learning to “listen to them” with attention, they all speak with different accents and I wanted to understand them, to learn from them…to travel…to know…I am so excited!

Afterwards at the end of the Seminar with the same series of ON THE RUN while standing and dancing with the music, it was like the end of the journey dreaming with other beings from all over the World, dancing and singing together, beings who communicated in English. We communicated with the body, eyes, with a smile…I learned that I was opening to other beings, new options and possibilities, other points of view while having spent the time in a corner during the entire seminar, I was able then to open up to explore to new places, moving around the entire space of the Seminar.

SO THAT SMALL JOURNEY AROUND THE STAGE WAS FOR ME A GREAT JOURNEY OF DREAMING!!! IT WAS MOMENT OF YYYEEEEESSS!!!!

WITH THE SERIES OF THE “SINGING SERPENT:” Every day I practice it. During the Seminar I felt the surrounding Silence, this series specifically immerses me in….SILENCE And I saw myself learning to sing in front of a piano. THE SOUND TRANSPORTS ME AND MAKES ME TRAVEL, MAKES ME DREAM… I WANT TO EXPLORE SOUND, another dream of all my life that I want to have come true this year.

AND WITH THE POEM: LOVE AFTER LOVE (by Derek Walcott) A phrase which resonated in me: “GIVE WINE. GIVE BREAD. GIVE BACK YOUR HEART TO ITSELF, TO THE STRANGER WHO HAS LOVED YOU”

I felt it was an order from the SPIRIT and each day I celebrate it!!! Singing, dancing and enjoying life!!!

Yes! I want to dream my life.

Few days after the workshop my first dream is coming. In Bath I dreamt to write a new book, a successful book, and I took the actions for this dream starting to write every day.

And I started on Monday to stop and take a moment to write on my notepad: this was one of the detailed actions from the Contract for Daily Practice I signed with my witness.

I wrote a book three years ago, another Yes moment of my life, and then I stopped. I had a lot of excuses, and all my excuses came up in Bath. My main excuses: I have not the right room to write, I don’t have the computer on the right position, I don’t want to write with the pen, I will start next month, I don’t know what to write now.

Staying “on the flow” with the magical passes I realized many Yes! moments in my life I never thought before. Often I’m focalized on my weak points, but “Yes!”, I had many great moments in my life. One important memory came up during the magical atmosphere in Bath: for the first time in my life, when I was fifteen, my Literature professor gave me an A+ on my writing work, and he read my writing in the classroom, and I started to enjoying writing, and I learnt to write only from the heart. Maybe, as the Instructors said during one lecture, my path of the heart started more than thirty years ago, with that “Yes” moment.

I felt a lot of heat into my body, from the beginning to end of the seminar, as the “flow” was physically into myself, and this heating brought joy and passion for the life, and deep gratitude for the space, the Campus of the University in Bath, for the Instructors, Reni, Nyei, Amber, Brian and Jim, and for all the magical beings gathered together for practicing the Carlos Castaneda Magical Passes.

 

“Something that happened while practicing the magical passes at Bath: just minutes before I remembered a moment of my childhood during the stalking with my witness, all of a sudden while practicing the magical pass, I remembered with great detail the wall at the scene. Then one of the wallpapers that was used and seconds after I saw another wallpaper and was able to clearly recall the scaly area of the wall. I shared this with my witness in our next stalking exercise. I saw also my posture, bent over on the floor, expectant, frowning and looking sad.

 

The first sensation of my moments of “Yes” were surrounded by tragic moments in my life passing by like the day to day events, at the end I was inundated by joyous moments where time and my internal dialogue came to a halt, I stopped judging and accepted my surroundings with a great feeling of love and respect. Even before arriving at the seminar I caught moments of “yes” surrounding me and just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes, it wasn’t pity, it was strength that came out of me, of my intent, of the possibility of taking charge of my actions. A positive side came out before my eyes. Tracking my negative side gave me the possibility of changing. Finding moments of “Yes” brought another possibility of having an additional tool, love, peace, a feeling of equality with everything, a great respect and not taking others for granted. I can stand and I can do it instead of allowing my negative thoughts to drag me down with their dialogues and body position. I can breathe deeply, stretching my body and holding on to those magical moments that surrounds us in life.

 

After narrating my dream, the one without the possibility of attainment it, Sunday morning I had an experience that brought a moment of “yes”:

 

-It was dawn and I decided to take out the trash, since I didn´t know where to take it, I left it outside and searched for a spot near one of the containers. A squirrel around me me got inside the mezzanine that led to the stairs and a great window. When she saw me, the squirrel stood up trying to escape, she walked from right to left scratching the window, and quickly taking peaks at me from the corner of her eyes. I would tell her that there was an opening towards the left where she could exit but she did not understand me. I slid away from sight to which she reacted and then left from where she had entered.

 

I saw myself while watching the squirrel, it was the same feeling as in my dream: there was no way out. The image that morning gave me an answer of being in Silence, finding serenity in my heart; it would allow me to see the way out. I and only myself has the solution to my dream.

 

You only have to arrive and things will fall into place, some will be there already before I even start my strategies into one of my dreams…

 

Thank you once again for this dream, I am full of energy and there is heat rising to my chest while remembering those shared moments with you and my friends. There were moments of Yes to nourish my being for a while. Now I can activate them and be attentive to those around me as if I have a new tool that gives me strength. In a few days, everything has changed starting with my dialogue. “I have time for myself” “I have time for you”. Some friends who I haven’t connected with in months called me and we have started enjoying together.

 

 

First of all thank to everybody for making this event so nice and enjoyable. I really appreciated the place of the workshop and was surprised by the beauty of the city and the countryside. Also meeting again all those practitioners who are becoming workshops after workshops closer to my heart and nevertheless still mysterious beings was magical once again.

 

What I "discovered" or better said "deepened" was that in spite of all my doubts and questions about what I want in my life, I have not changed since my childhood. I still follow my path with heart and love the same things. I still like to learn new things, I like to travel, I like to explore the awareness and the possibilities of the human being, I like music and arts, I'm curious about science and I still feel myself very sensitive to the presence and the beauty of the nature around me even if it happens that I loose my connection with what surrounds me for a moment. Looking back in my past I'm able to see all those components and I realized that finally I have nothing to regret. In my case I have to act even if I'm wrong in spite of doing nothing because of my fears of failure or being wrong. That's one of my challenges. Maybe this understanding will help me to dream forward with more confidence.

 

The climax of the seminar had been for me the moment Luz-Marie talked to us about her life and especially about the memories of her childhood speaking about the pure love and care of her parents which touched me deep in my heart.

 

Until we meet again....

 

 

Thank you so much for this wonderful workshop. I liked very much the form "on the run" standing and the passes of Silvio Manuel with the music we done at the end of the workshop and "the snake" too. For the first time since I have been taking part to workshops, I felt as we (me and all the other practitioners, and the instructors) were doing something beautiful together, and I was at ease and relaxed both on the stage and between the others. I was surprise by this sensation, that is new for me, but at the same time it seemed normal. I was happy because, at last, I felt fine and I had no headache, tensions and the head full of judgments and thoughts.

 

My witness was a practitioner I already knew a little. But I don't know why, I thought he disliked me. But then, doing the stalking exercises together, I discovered that I had only judgments against him (as often against people, but often I don't realize that), and I found that sometimes our situations were similar. One of the dreams I stalked was to learn English, especially understand and talk. That's the reason why I am writing in English and not in Italian. I hope I made not too many mistakes. I liked the stalking exercises, I realized how often I neglected what I liked to do for fear that I could displease or vex someone, or also because I did not believe I could change or make something different.

 

This workshop was really a moment of delight, thank you so much!

 

 

The enormous silence we had after doing ""On the run"" was just magnificent! And after all the screaming it was funny just to hear the last shoutings, I was really laughing.

 

After the seminar I had and am still having lots of moments of silence and moments of been present and more than ever moments of awe for been here in this beautiful planet. Also I'm feeling lighter and freer and with gratitude for everything I have.

 

 

 

Thank you for the recent Bath workshop! As usual, i feel much lighter, more at ease and there's more silence and confidence. I have noticed during the years that every workshop act on certain area of my body. At this time it was an area on my upper chest, on the level of center of decisions. On saturday evening in workshop i felt my human form related to that area and i somehow knew what to do next with it. So it has been liberating to recapitulate certain areas in my personal history. I have already felt the results: my old habits don't 'catch' me so easily as before and there's a new kind of self-confidence in the air. It has also worked on the physical level, my chest is more open now. I'm looking forward to see the full results.

 

 

I’ve been keeping a list of things I want to happen - both abstract and in my daily dealings for over a year. I review them everyday. Since the seminar two things have happened:

 

1. I’ve begun noticing areas where I’m anticipating problems which aren’t on my list

2. I feel this projecting ‘yes’ moments forward is a quiet thing, yet to be used in an active way as things come up.

 

I’ve been having a problem with my lawyers. They should have told me to do something before a deadline – and didn’t. A new guy took over my account who I think isn’t fully competent; this isn’t the first time. However, this particular piece of business has gone too far to change horses.

 

I noticed every time I think of this situation I’m trying to figure out what the next thing to go wrong will be.

 

So now I’m imagining how competent this wonderful person is and how everything is going to be resolved to my and everyone else’s satisfaction….! Yes!

 

I've resolved to keep a notebook in my pocket and note down internal dialogues as they happen so I can review and plan later.

 

Thank you to everyone for telling their stories especially Nyei and Luz-Marie.

 

 

I am really grateful for this magical event – workshop in Bath, UK! I would like to share with you some of my experiences.

 

The most improbable was my feeling of wings. In one of the pauses during practicing «On the running» in 5 I felt a big wings like a butterfly has. It was like something really material, but it was not! It was like thin wings from dense energy… It seems I was in a sphere of energy and my wings were restricted by this sphere. And it moved – when I inhaled they were opening and when I exhaled they were closing… One though came for instant: … wings of perception!

 

I have no idea what was it, but it was so real at that moment. I forgot about it at all and remembered about only at Sunday, when we started practicing magical passes in the morning.

 

Now it is like a sweet dream with me…

 

Another sensation – calm, I was really calm through all workshop, I did not want to speak, I felt fresh air outside, a felt every step and touching of my feet to the Earth, I heard songs of birds and whisper of wind, I feel silence in area of Bath. It seemed like city was in a dream, in a light doze…

 

 

…For me it was a great joy to meet once again with two fellow warriors that I had not seen in six years or more in a marvelous setting.

 

For the last year or so there had been something troubling me very deeply at an emotional level. While casually conversing with others some of that anguish came to the fore but at the same time a solution also emerged from deep inside me and gave me the hint of a solution. It was a symbol in the shape of a canoe to enable me to ride the rise and fall of the enormous waves of emotion in which I can easily drown. It was a message to create my own vehicle with which to sail on.

 

 

In the stalking exercises I remarked new dreams: to take away the old skin, to feel the connecting with the Universe every days and live in the abundance, to thank for the work that arrive, to thank for the new meetings, to thank for the new inspiration, to thank for the seminars, to thank the spaces where this happen. ……But I was astonished, in the A M O form, the serpent’s sing was transporting me in another space (that look like an Anasazi’s village in the New Mexico, where the people have gone away like energy) where my physical body were only an envelope of sparkling energy, other people were with me……Dare I dream my physical body can transform itself in energy? Yes!

 

 

I liked the remark of Nyei that Bath was not chosen randomly to have this workshop, but that it was a bridge between the first and second attention (if I remember correctly). This remark made me more sensitive to try to sense this different energy in Bath. It was true; it has some remarkable energetic places. After the workshop we visited, one spot where in a circle on a round square were 5 trees together and the energy was like a well coming out of the ground, unmistakably.

 

Very strong in this workshop was that I felt my attention was going to “who sees me, notices me, …and now back to me”. During the pass of the singing earth serpent (a most beautiful form) in very large letters as I was lying on my back I literally saw fat black words that expressed exactly, clearly what I was asking all the time, attention for me, look at me. The strange thing was that the letters were as a word and I understood them, but now afterwards I cannot say which word it was.

 

I became lighter after that. Then we laid down on the mat and listened to “Over the Rainbow” by an Hawaiian singer. It was so beautiful, I thought about my mother who sang lullaby’s to us as children and the tears streamed down. Together with the moments of yes we wrote down, which could also include moments that your life took a different turn, I remembered when I heard my sister was sick, I cried as if I hadn’t grieved those moments at all. It made me so humble then, that was the only way to step away from “me” during the whole seminar.

 

The passes of Silvio Manuel were so delicate, strong, you could sense they came from him. I got very joyful. We combined them in a dance form on a beautiful song, you could shift groups. It was very fluid, everyone exploring and dancing around. Just like on the shirts reading from others was reading your own and more dreams, it was like seeing dream energy in action or in progress flowing from here to there, moving like energy moves, unending.

 

One soundman gave a most poetic description of how he saw the group when we were lying on our stomachs as a snake, we were like pebbles where a stream would flow over it, not separate individuals, but a whole.

 

At one point we took a pause to let one of the dreams most pertinent to us now in and my heart opened and an image came to me, very sharp with the place in details, I was surprised and wanted to wave it off, it was the dream of healing and I saw the practice of another being who does things with healing.

 

 

After the Seminar of Bath moments of YES are everywhere: the laughter of a child, a bird’s flight, the barking of a dog, the soft movements of a cat, a conversation between two people, the branches swayed back and forth by a faint ocean breeze, waves, the distant horizon, clouds and their mysterious forms, the shine in the eyes of my son, the sweetness in my daughter’s embrace…tears when I see myself in the acts of a protagonist. During those instances time stops or it moves in slow motion and the space expands and changes while acquiring a very special hue: the touch of spirit, acknowledged by a series of physical sensations and the certainty that “something” got connected.

 

My legs feel light like the cotton, the body relaxes and my breathing expands and is vaporous and the urgency appears knowing that there is only one place from which to act: silence and sobriety. These sensations are very similar to those experienced during dreaming (when I wake up with a clear sense of determination and awareness). It´s like both sensations are coming closer and acknowledging each other, both bodies want to dream, they search and come closer, the first and second attention come closer and fuse. From this state “special state of attention” sharp images of my childhood come to mind that up to this point were hidden, like they didn’t exist. Images that help me understand why I behave the way I do in the present.

 

I am in the kitchen washing dishes from dinner. It is hot and there is a short breeze that enters the window which is slightly open. I hear laughter but no one is laughing. I am with Nieves, she is the maid in the house back when I was 5 years old. I am asking her to make a meal different than the ones my brothers eat because I don’t like fish. She says no. I get mad and go look for her mother who also serves at my home. I start doing silly things that I know she likes so she gives in to my wishes. I sort of succeed but finally attain it. Presently this is a pattern I repeat. I didn´t know where it started. Now I have the answer. For several years I learned and perfected this way of behaving and at the present time I continue doing it as add-on with women: when I think they are going to leave me, I leave them first and this way I don´t suffer. Scared to be rejected, that they will stop loving me.

 

Moments of “YES”, hidden behind moments of fear and out of alignment positions. This is what I´ve learned from Bath: to dig into the excuses, fears or complains to see the treasure hidden behind them and to convert those instances in SUBLIME and MAGICAL instances. Slowly those moments of YES come together as extensive plots creating a new consciousness: the energetic body. The passes of ON THE RUN and the SINGING SERPENT help me in this intent to create a plot of moments of YES united, intertwined together. Thank you for this beautiful dream of the seminar of Bath, it was really a sublime instant, a moment of YES in my life. Thank you.

 

 

For me it was a fluid, quiet workshop, full of affection and with the sensation of being at home, with my energy, in the Tensegrity structure. I feel that Tensegrity is lovingly uniting all the energy bodies, it’s beautiful.

 

The passes of the first series were very powerful and fluid, they gently moved my assemblage point.

 

After the Singing Serpent of the Earth Passes I perceived something like I was being freed, as though some fear or worry had gone.

 

Silvio Manuel’s Passes with the music were sublime and joyous, magical.

 

During the whole workshop, and to this moment, my inner silence is stronger and more compact.

 

Furthermore, Bath’s park is beautiful, there were wonderful trees and little animals, I felt like a happy child, I did the “tree form” at a crossing of 4 pathways, near magnificent trees.

 

 

While we were doing the singing serpent form in silence without lights and with this wonderful and exquisite music I had several distinct perceptions.

 

The first came while we were doing the part where we rotated the head three times in one and three times in the other direction – I suddenly had the imagination of being a dancing cobra in front of a snake-charmer. The second occurred while we were moving with the arms, the ribcage and the legs from side to side in order to get rid of our old skin – I immediately transformed into a light brown serpent winding through the desert sand between dry branches. The dry branches should help me to stripe off my old skin. The next perception occurred while we were doing the side to side ondulatory movement in keeping position with hands on the floor to the sound of "O" – I incorporated with my whole body the winding movement of a serpent. At last, while we were standing still at the very end of the form, for a moment I saw a very bright light like sunlight but whiter and of a waterlike consistence at my feet. This light vibrated and I perceived it while my view was not focused and without directly looking at my feet. The thought came in my mind: "Oh, this is my attention, what is left of it!" And then I noticed very weak light lines, much less bright than the light at my feet criss-crossing the room slightly above the floor like a web and connecting all the practitioners with each other.

 

 

I am immensely grateful for the experience at the seminar of Bath. I feel enchanted and have the feeling that I got just what I needed to continue advancing in my path. It´s as if everything I got is like a glove that fits in perfectly into my skin and in this sense I believe you have been impeccable in your dream and have managed to dream this seminar according to the necessities of the body of practitioners during this seminar.

 

Magic has entered my life and I see myself moving forward in my dream grounded. What is most curious is that the fuel that moves it all, it´s an abundance of affection that sprouts within. I feel that through the stalking I have managed to pierce through layers in myself and I have arrived to that abundance of affection that was always there but did not have access to and now emerges to the surface inundating all my life.

 

My dreams are coming true and before the question: What is new in me? I would say that now I believe in myself, I am convinced at a physical level and all my being is beginning to be aligned in the same direction to say YES!